Priceless - project me day 635

I've tried to add an image to my blog thru the blackberry, wordpres app ... but it didn't work. So I had to copy my post to and gmail it to my mom's laptop then email the image and do the post while she generously stepped aside ...

I'm going even more nuts without a laptop but one thing we know about me is that an obstacle becomes my greatest driving force and I'm now on a mission to prove my worth for sponsorship through my Social media influence. I'm thinking the fact that the real Arnold Schwarzenegger follows me might help ;p

But this moment is about the present Mr Unexpected ?came home with yesterday and the reminder that some gifts are priceless. He wished he could buy me more or spend more on me.
I remember the day my dad bought me my sword for my alter. He had rolled his eyes a few days before when I said it was to be my next purchase and by the weekend he had sourced and bought it.
This gift has the same energy. When I smudged the house witj sage after the break-in and told my man that I had posted a dragon to stand guard at each door he also rolled his eyes. Just as my dad had done, his gift of acceptance of my ways was beyond words.

I know I can be a little strange but the acknowledgement of my beliefs and the gift of this dragon makes it priceless ...

Family time - project me day 634

Short and sweet! It's the Jewish New Year and I love the way our family all join together and eat. Yes, we always over cater and we promise we won't celebrate the second night, but we do.

Times are tense because we are in the midst of sorting out the claims for the break in and the gate still isn't fixed because our landlords are tossers. I hate leaving my mom at home but I still have to carry on ... so it's been great that the Jewish holidays have had my sisters and brother floating in and out.

It's been another over the top dinner and we are now moving onto ice cream. The cat is chasing a torch light on the wall. The parrot is calling the cat and sneezing. My nephews are shining the torch and making the cat dizzy while I search for names to call my nephew's bearded dragon that they are going to get soon.

Still searching for someone to thin I'm worthy of a laptop!!

Ice cream and Blackberry - project me day 633

I've just come back from sitting at the car wash with Mr Unexpected and eating ice cream, which I thought was totally romantic. For a little while there are always moments that troubles are forgotten and the world seems perfect.

So the sponsored laptop wasn't insured. There's no trying to even figure all the pieces out because what's done is done. It's no secret that I'm living the dream but not turning it into enough cash to have the luxury of replacing the laptop. It's also no secret that I'm not a great believer in everything falling into your lap just because a couple of books on laws of attraction say it's that easy.

I hate that I can't blog for long because I don't have a laptop but I also know that my manifestations and riches come in many spectacular ways. I will get a laptop because I have worked hard to be supported in the sponsorship of one. I will, in the meantime, be so grateful for my hardworking Blackberry that is doing its utmost to keep me as in touch with the world as possible.

Today I was accused on not returning the social support from FollowSA because I have not been online and able to retweet someone else's campaign. At first I was mortified that anyone would think that of me and I began to apologise. It didn't take me long to realise that a lot of my lesson this year are going to be about toughening up. I stopped apologising and went on to realise that people need to support each other because they want to and not because they want anything in return!

So tonight is the first night of the Jewish New Year and we are off to my sister's. My mom is?devastated with the amount she misses my dad and I can't blame her after the break in and the fact that we are on the move again ... and for a moment I ate ice cream with the man that I love a little more each day and I tweeted our ice cream romance ... and I was reminded that my world is perfect!

On the move again - project me day 632

I hope my blogs don't have to be short and sweet for too long because I've realised just how much I find comfort in my blogging. I missed blogging on the weekend even though it was chaotic and it felt so good sitting down and hearing myself think aloud.

Not having a laptop is crazy so I'm just keeping a positive attitude that something happens to help me out. I have put it out there on Twitter and asked a few friends to see if they have contacts but a part of me also hates having to ask so it's very interesting that I would be dealing with a loss of something I need to be who I am.

Anyway ... we have decided to move house! The landlord wasn't prepared to increase the security and the second we showed signs of being unsure they let us off the lease and there have been estate agents here already.

A move will be scary on many levels because we have to do the double deposit thing and pay for movers when times are already tough. The more interesting part is that it was one thing for Mr Unexpected to sleep over one night and not leave but now we are off house hunting together ... now isn't that something!

I have to admit that I feel a bit like deer in the headlights right now and I haven't managed to get much done today. A mobile phone really can't take the place of a laptop and my head is worried about security seeing as though there have been electrical faults in this house for ages and the gate was taken off the hinges by the robbers. I have been nervous to leave my mom alone while the gate is standing wide open and the alarm is working properly ... wow, doesn't it just sound like such a drama?


Stolen from but not robbed - project me day 631

I'm going to make this short considering I am trying not to get too dramatic about my birthday weekend that ended up being one I wouldn't like to repeat in a hurry.

It goes a little something like this! My amazing man gave me a beautiful bottle of perfume in the early hours of my birthday morning. Mom had slept out so I got my phone call with happy birthday wishes and she told me she would be home in a few hours. I still wouldn't see her because we were heading out to my long awaited birthday night at the luxurious Mount Grace Country House and Spa.

The 1 and a bit hour drive was awesome but the arrival at the hotel was even better. The second I walked in the door I was greeted with birthday wishes from all the staff! Whoever helped us or saw us knew it was my special day and I was beyond excited for a dream night (our first night away as a new couple).

I've never been one to switch off my phone, no matter how I know I need some time out. I have always worried that someone might need me and I know it might be a little neurotic but that's me. I did put the phone on silent though and only checked the phone once ... when a gorgeous plate of chocolates and fruit were delivered to our luxury suite. I grabbed the opportunity to check the phone and there was the strangest message from my brother asking why Mr Unexpected had left his car in the middle of the road and left the gate to the house wide open.

I knew it ... house broken in to!
They must have seen the signage on my man's car and knew not to take it so they moved it out the way and stole mom's car instead. They took both mine and Mr Unexpected's laptops, the flat screen TV that was the last gift we gave my dad and all mine and my mom's?jewelry.

For my international friends who have shown their love and concern ... no, they most probably won't catch the guys and NO, nothing will be returned. That is the reality of SA. Not one that I'm thrilled about but it's the reality. Yes, I've counted my blessings and it's amazing that my mother wasn't home because she is always home on the weekends. They also closed the door behind them and my kitties and parrot are both safe. My sister drove past the house and saw Mr Unexpected's car in the middle of the road and thought he was moving it out the way so I could take my car out ... Thank the gods she didn't come in to check!

So ... I've counted my blessings and although I was stolen from I was robbed of nothing. I have spent the past few days feeling so lucky that no one was home, my pets are safe and that we didn't come home to tragedy ...

Now I'm entitled to be honest and vent for a moment! I can't believe that we are so accustomed to getting robbed that when the amazing staff of the Mount Grace got the call, they could all empathise on some level and welcomed us back whenever we are ready. The warmest thank you to Clayton Howard and his staff for personally meeting with me and wishing me on my safe journey home ... although I was in your company for a fleeting moment it was on that I will never forget.

I couldn't believe that when I tweeted it everyone told me that I should be lucky no one was hurt ... I couldn't believe that it sits so much in our psyche to be stolen from that we have slipped into the next best auto mode of being lucky everyone is alive.

No one should be stolen from!! It should not be the norm ... and no, I don't know where I'm going with this or what I expect to be done about it! All I know is that it was heritage day and I am very proudly South African. I refuse to blame a nation for the one or two thieves that invaded my home. I never talk politics and maybe because I feel like it's pissing in the wind ... but I could blame a whole lot now!!

I'm not going to pretend that I'm not upset that some material things were taken ... the perfume my man just gave me a few hours before, my D & G watch that my mom gave me knowing I always wanted to own 1 thing from them, my ring my mom just gave me for my birthday the night before, the flat screen TV that was the last gift we gave my dad (yes, I said that) ... and my laptop!

It's crazy to try blog off my phone! It's crazy to try function off my phone! It's crazy that I got that sponsorship not so long ago and it's crazy that I'm back at square one in need of a laptop!

Yes, we are all safe ... Yes, I was stolen from ... Yes, I've counted my blessing ... Yes, I was robbed of nothing I can't replace ... Yes, I'm pissed off and don't know what the hell to do about it!

On a special note ... thank you to the Twitter and Facebook communities for your incredible birthday wishes and support as my weekend went mad.

Another special thank you to my family for rallying together and making the rest of my birthday weekend so special.

The biggest thank you to my beautiful man for making me feel so safe, keeping me smiling and reminding me that love grows when times are rough ... I've truly found my cowboy!

5FM's Rob Vember tells his Project Me story in support of The Chaeli Campaign

After successfully attempting to break the Guinness World Record (although not formerly recognized - long story which he'll explain over coffee if you like) for the longest broadcast by an individual (125 hours) in September 2006, Rob walked into the Heart 104.9FM offices in Cape Town to enquire about a vacation internship and instead was offered the Weekend Breakfast show.

By December 2007 Rob had also held the position of Afternoon Drive show Producer, making Heart 104.9FM his home 7 days a week. Rob had bigger plans though? Soon came the offer from South Africa?s number one Top 40 Commercial Youth Station 5FM. The move to Johannesburg also saw Rob complete a year stint at Super Sport Blitz as a sport journalist, that unfortunately came to an end due to his demanding radio career.

Having started on 5FM?s weekend afternoon slot Rob has gone on to host the flagship 5FM Top 40 and has now become the king of nighttime radio with The Rob Vember Show airing Monday-Thursday 19:00-22:00 for which he won the 2011 MTN Radio Award for ?Best Night-Time Presenter? Rob has also been involved with The Chaeli Campaign since 2007. Rob has since faced his biggest physical challenge by cycling the Cape Argus Pick ?n Pay Cycle not once but twice in aid of the organization. Since his involvement with the campaign Rob has become the official Patron of the NGO.

Check out the official site for Rob Vember

Rob tells his Project Me Story:

What is your definition of happiness?
Happiness is so hard to?encapsulate? as ultimately it relates to a truth that only you can experience and no words can describe. It truly is a ?feeling? that is experienced differently by each of us. I believe it is that silent solitary moment where nothing else matters but being. Acknowledging that you are here, you are present, you are living. I don?t believe there?s a single greater appreciation.

If you could have everyone say one thing to themselves every day, what would it be?
?I am here for a reason? ? then spend as much time as possible trying to figure out what the reason is.

We all need someone to believe in us. Who is that person for you and why?
I?m pretty sure there?s a few people I could put on that list but I?m not sure that I agree with the premis?of the question.? You are nothing without self belief and self worth. Perhaps I have both because I have people who believe in me but you are nothing unless you believe in yourself.

What quality do you believe we can never be taught because it is our birth right?
We are not alone. We do not exist separately.? We are connected and should strive to live accordingly.

Describe the moment when you realised that you could achieve anything?
I?m not sure that I?ve had that moment yet. It is something I still grapple with. I?ve achieved quite a bit at different stages of my life, each with its challenges but I?m not sure that I can as yet say categorically that those achievements came without doubt. I am a sceptic and cynic by nature after all.

What have you always dreamed of being or doing and have you reached that dream?
I?ve always dreamed of being on my current career path but there?s still so much more in my?dream space. I?d still love to enter the world of television in a big way. There?s really so many dreams scattered all over my brain that its difficult to put on paper.

When life gets in the way, what do you always remind yourself of?
I can always go home! Everyone needs that one place where they?re always welcome.

We all have something unique to offer the world, what is yours?
Still searching? (see question 2)

How do you deal with the fears that could potentially hold you back?
The potential pain can only last for so long then it too shall pass. If you want something bad enough you?ll get over the fear and take the leap. If your fear outweighs your ?want? then you don?t want it enough.

What do you believe we have lost sight of in the world as a whole?
Back to question 4: somewhere in the hustle & bustle we?ve lost our will and need to coexist. Greed is the deadly sin that is doing us the most damage. If only we realised that we are mere mortals part of a much greater system.

Rob Vember supports: The Chaeli Campaign

The Chaeli Campaign was founded on 6 August 2004 by five girls between the ages of 6 and 12. Chaeli Mycroft, her sister (Erin) and lifelong friends, the Terry sisters (Tarryn, Justine and Chelsea) started The Chaeli Campaign to raise R20 000 for Chaeli's motorised wheelchair. They managed to do this in 7 weeks by selling cards with Erin & Chaeli's artwork on them and Sunshine Pots (DIY miniature pot plants).

Although Chaeli is the face of The Chaeli Campaign the spirit on which this organisation is based is the teamwork that exists amongst our five founding members. Our mission now is to mobilise the minds and bodies of children with disabilities and to normalise society through advocacy and education programmes and events.

We run eight different programmes including providing custom-made assistive devices, therapies (physiotherapy, occupational therapy and communication facilitation) and also support special needs children in mainstream schools. The thread that runs through all our programmes and events is the importance of inclusion and diversity in society, based on this definition of disability:

Physical/intellectual impairment is self-evident and can be dealt with. Disability is created by the way in which society responds to the impairment.

Disability is, therefore, a behaviour and an attitude and although we are?directly?involved in impacting the lives of differently-abled children and their families, an equally important task is to invite able-bodied society to a greater awareness of the essential role that people with disabilities have to play in communities - teaching lessons that only they can teach.

Jodene's birthday tribute from Hustler Girl - project me day 629

Today is a special day, not only because it is Jodene?s birthday but also because Jo has asked me to guest blog on Project Me for Day 629.

Let me introduce myself, *ahem* drum roll please?. I am Kimmie otherwise known as Hustler Girl.

Jo and I go waaaaaay back. I knew Jo before Project Me was even a twinkle in her eye. Jo was my Business Management lecturer at Beauty College. Our paths crossed again through the wonderful world of social networking on a little thing called Facebook, you may have heard of it. We reconnected and soon after that Jo started blogging and she hasn?t stopped since!

While I am busy typing this post Jo is off on a well deserved naughty romantic getaway with Mr Unexpected at the Mount Grace Country House and Spa.

Birthdays are always a good time to reflect on the past year and acknowledge all the successes that you have achieved. Jo, I hope that you look back on the last year and give yourself a ?PAT? on the back for a job well done! J ?What a wonderful journey you have been on since starting Project Me. I have watched you grow so much as a person and overcome so many fears. I admire your perseverance and that you continue to push yourself and achieve goals which you thought you never would.

I am so proud to call you my friend. We have shared so many fun times together and I look forward to many more.

I wish you a very Happy Birthday filled with the best things that life has to offer. ?May all the dreams you have become reality.

You once read out the lyrics to this song at college and it really had an impact on me so I sign off with these lyrics as a reminder that we must live life to the fullest and appreciate and embrace each moment.

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of ?99
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be
it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by
scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable
than my own meandering
experience?I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth; oh nevermind; you will not
understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.
But trust me, in 20 years you?ll look back at photos of yourself and
recall in a way you can?t grasp now how much possibility lay before
you and how fabulous you really looked?.You?re not as fat as you

Don?t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing
bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that
never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm
on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing everyday that scares you


Don?t be reckless with other people?s hearts, don?t put up with
people who are reckless with yours.


Don?t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you?re ahead, sometimes
you?re behind?the race is long, and in the end, it?s only with

Remember the compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.


Don?t feel guilty if you don?t know what you want to do with your
life?the most interesting people I know didn?t know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year
olds I know still don?t.

Get plenty of calcium.

Be kind to your knees, you?ll miss them when they?re gone.

Maybe you?ll marry, maybe you won?t, maybe you?ll have children,maybe
you won?t, maybe you?ll divorce at 40, maybe you?ll dance the funky
chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary?what ever you do, don?t
congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either ? your
choices are half chance, so are everybody else?s. Enjoy your body,
use it every way you can?don?t be afraid of it, or what other people
think of it, it?s the greatest instrument you?ll ever

Dance?even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

Read the directions, even if you don?t follow them.

Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents, you never know when they?ll be gone for

Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the
people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you
knew when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.


Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will
philander, you too will get old, and when you do you?ll fantasize
that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were
noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don?t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund,
maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one
might run out.

Don?t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will
look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the
ugly parts and recycling it for more than
it?s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen?



No light, sparkle or twinkle - project me day 629

So tomorrow's my birthday!

You wouldn't believe it if I told you I was sitting in the dark, miserable as hell.

I'm doing my best to snap myself out of it before Mr Unexpected and I head out to my very exciting and much needed night away at the Mount Grace Country House and Spa, but the day went a little something like this.

I woke up this morning to no electricity, a dying phone and the realisation that this month just isn't going financially according to plan. I'm also sitting with the knowledge that I'm heading into a new numerological cycle and I am so scared to start it wrong and set a whole 9 years off on the wrong course. I have managed to convince myself that it's not worth the stress and I've fallen into the very trap I teach people not to. I'm asking myself why it's not easier if I'm living my passion, loving my life, being conscious and grateful. So ... I cried as I woke up and to be super honest, I only dragged myself out of bed after 10am.

Not a great way to end a year either, never mind start a new one.

Thank heavens for my mom!!! Without electricity it was the perfect time to do a big grocery order and shop for hours. We also did a lunch where I completely overindulged in comfort food that consisted of a hot dog and chips. The chat comforted me more than the food with a whole lot of reminders of how I am actually on the right track and how I have been laying the foundation and I am beginning to see the rewards.

Only in my world does all the electricity in the street come back except for at our house. Firstly, mom and I were too lazy to be bothered to take parcels in so we literally left them in the car ... besides the chicken and milk which we shoved in the fridge that had no power anyway.

It's supposed to be a breeze having a landlord and not worry about being the owner with all the issues. The only problem is that we have landlords from hell who just don't give a damn about their home so nothing gets sorted. We've been moaning about electricity for 6 months now and that got me all fired up and twinkle-less again!!

I could go on and bitch and moan and sound like a total brat, but I just got a Tweet that said: "Our Fearless #FollowSA leader > @Jodenecoza" ... @JayGibbs09, thank you!

The lights might be out all around me and I might not feel like there is much sparkle inside, but the soppy saying talks about someone being the match that lights the flame ... that I intend to shine with for the next 9 years!!!

Thank you R.E.M - project me day 627

News of celebs and musos flow through my Twitter timeline all day and most of the time it doesn't have impact at all. If you know me the you will know that I'm a South African girl who loves Country music and we don't get much news about it here. I wouldn't be able to tell you what was playing on the radio at the moment, but it wasn't always like that.

We grew up doing a lot of family things and one of the big ones was chilling by the pool listening to the top 20 on the weekend. I remember it as clear as day because I used to sit with my little tape recorder and wait patiently for my favourite songs. I did the same with the top of the pops music video shows ... and song I waited for and listened to on repeat was losing my religion.

All their great stuff has been recorded and it's frozen in time, but I still had a moment of sadness and a moment of happiness reflecting back on my personal journey with R.E.M. Some songs I just loved but others carry meaning for me that wrench at my heart or make me burst out into joyous rapture and I wanted to share the thoughts that rambled through my mind as I reflected on my journey with R.E.M.

Some of my faves: "Everyday is yours to win", "accelerate", "at my most beautiful", "gardening at night", "imitation of life", "leaving New York", "radio song", "stand", "the one I love", "the sidewinder sleeps tonight", "what's the frequency Kenneth" and "walk unafraid".

But then there are the other songs that tell stories of times in my life that I will just never forget:

"It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel fine" ... I had just matriculated and it was a whole new world of being all grown up. I didn't want to do anything after school because I was such a poor student and I think I was too frozen to make a choice just because I was programmed not to do well. This song sat on repeat while I?acclimatised to the reality that I had to do something ... I had to choose to be someone!

"Losing my religion" ... I did all the right Jewish things for the longest time but I remember questioning so much by the time I was already 6 years old. The last thing I ever wanted to do was upset or offend my parents and it was the tiniest steps that scared me the most. My first real taste of stepping outside of the religion was pretty much inline with this song and I remember analysing the words like crazy hoping I would find permission to take the first steps to being my own person and shaking off all fears and guilt ... I still turn to this song at times!

"Man on the Moon" ... I hope that by now you know my love for the moon ... so it was as simple as being crazy over a song that had anything to do with the moon. I have to say that this is one of my best for the oddest and most simple reason.

"Nightswimming" ... I survived working the corporate world for one year and I hated every day of it. The only thing that kept me going was the fact that ?I had a radio in my office and I could escape into music for a while. This song was all over the radio at the time and I used to stop working (or pretend to be working) while I would hum along in my head for a little sanity ... pretending I was in a far away place ... nightswimming!

"Shiny Happy People" ... Everyone else has little blue pills and I have music. Well, I guess this song doesn't count because who didn't use it as that happy song that could snap you out of any mood? Wow, I love this song! I loved the music video even more! A little FYI ... I still call people "Shiny Happy People" when I greet them ... "Hello Shiny Happy People"

"Everybody Hurts" ... I listened to this song in November 1995 on the day we used it as a tribute to the death of four friends who all lost their lives in car accidents within the span of a month. One young mother, two sisters and a dear high school friend. It tore fear and confusion through all of our lives and as friends we struggled to be in our early 20's and so riddled with death. Some people used the song to comfort them, but I just couldn't handle listening to it. I would switch the radio off, walk out the room and do anything not to have to face the fear of just how mortal we are. It took me a good few years to pull myself together but never does a time go by, that I don't think of burying one friend after the other...


Numerology: Starting back at one - project me day 626

Just before each other's birthdays and at the beginning of each year, Greggie and I do a tarot spread that is tells a story of the energy of the year ahead. I've never been interested in fortune telling but I've always been very drawn to the tools that give us greater insight into who we are. Yes, we can discover all those things without any of the tools out there but I like the idea of having a compass and not wandering the earth aimlessly looking for myself.

It's strange not having my best friend around for my birthday but it's even stranger sitting with a deck of tarot cards and not having the?detachment to read the energy of my own year ahead, so that's gonna have to wait until Greggie's great return.

I truly believe that even if we don't know anything about numbers, they still impact our lives. On the other hand, when you do know about the energy of who you are and where you are going, there is so much consciousness you can add to your journey. That has always been a very big part of 'project me' ... that consciousness.

I headed into a 9 year this time last year with a very bad back injury and it's a year tomorrow that I was in hospital. I remember Greggie telling me how every?significant?the injury was for a 9 year because of how personal and internal that final year of a cycle is. We work in cycles of 9's in numbers and this weekend I will be starting the first year of a whole new 9 cycle.

Obviously the 9 is all about ending a cycle so it's vital to have put a whole lot of stuff down, let go of?additional?stuff and basically getting over one's self to start again. Trust me ... my years has been filled with that!!

I've had an odd few days and I haven't been able to get my spiritual journey off my mind. I have focused on my beliefs, what carries me through each day and what the foundation of my 'knowing' is. It wasn't a great feeling until I realised that it's all about the numbers changing and when I thought about starting a cycle back at one again ... I felt the confidence in myself soar.

So I'm a lot more ready for my 1 than I've been giving myself credit for ...

Here's how to work out what number year you are in and a snap shot of what your year is about:

Take you day and month and add them together until you get one number: 24 + o9 = 6

Add that number to the year we are in and come to one number again: 6 + 2011 = 1

  1. Year of new beginnings
  2. Year of intergration, patient development
  3. Year of active social life, get out of rut, communicate
  4. Year of taking care of business, putting down roots
  5. Year of speculation and enthusiasm, breaking free
  6. Year of taking coar of others, responsibility and obligation
  7. Year of sabbatical, quietude, examination and analysis, looking within
  8. Year of taking control of your life, being tested and evaluated
  9. Year of endings, tying up loose ends, letting go