Damn these brainy ideas - project me day 418

22 February 2011

Today I feel speechless. I don't know what to say about myself except WTF?? I'm wondering why I didn't get the little girl dream of getting married and having kids by the age of 24. Not that I haven't seen that be an incredible dream for so many. But for some reasons, when I was sketching my dream life I had other crazy idea. Other mad, big and totally magical ideas that would suit my personality down to a T. That doesn't mean I'm not entitled to curse myself for some of the best ideas I've had.

I always cast my mind to an interview I watched with Robbie Williams. I watched in awe as one of the greatest music icons of the world spoke about how absolutely?petrified?he is of his own success. How freaked out he gets before he records a song, sings a song, releases a song, performs a song. He has performed in front of record breaking crowds and felt like a total failure. Imagine thinking that millions of people (who are screaming and cheering your name) all think you suck. Yet Robbie doesn't know how to do anything else. He can't be who he isn't and he would have no purpose if he didn't wake up and do what his soul is yelling out for him to do.

I totally get your Robbie.

I know my friends sometimes don't understand my panic or that you can shove me on a stage in front of hundreds of people and I'll be fine, but send me to a meeting alone and I want to cry. I get what it does to me ... but I do it anyway.

So, I've had some brilliant ideas! You are reading one of them. There are much more where those came from and I am working with my heart and soul to breathe more and more life into them. That doesn't mean I don't curse myself during Lifeology meetings. Usually Greggie smirks and then it hits me ... "holy crap ... now that's gonna take bravery and confidence! $%#& more bravery and more confidence!!!"

The bolder the idea, the more Greg hoses himself and the more pale I turn but there's nothing else on this earth I would be doing.
Last night I shared some of my big scared crybaby fears with a friend who told me to get over myself. He said it?endearingly but he also made me realise something. This girl ain't changing. If I were anyone else beside the girl with the big ideas who got freaked out by those very plans that spilled forth, I would have no driving force.
My power is my very own ability to bring to life those very things that scare the living hell out of me. It doesn't matter whether it's as small as making a phone call to as big as .... don't let me say how big because that might just spark another crazy idea. Let's just say that what's on my plate is big enough ... it's JODENE enough and it scares the living bajeebers out of me.

The Robbie interview:

13 comments on “Damn these brainy ideas - project me day 418”

  1. "There is no one alive who is Youer than You." - Dr Seuss.

    So very true. The only thing that you can really do is pop the awesome pill and be the best you that you can be. 😀

    Confidence and bravery you can almost mismatch. Enough confidence and you're not really having to be all that brave. Brave enough and you don't need that much confidence... Always easier with a good balance but when all else fails, focus on the one that works best for you. 😉
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    1. What a special comment my friend!!! You make a damn fine cheerleader and it's totally awesome that I have you on my side!

  2. I get you. But sometimes we need to do something that scares us to get out of our comfort zone and into the bright lights of success. A little truth about myself - when I started my bottled water project I realised that I would have to go out and meet people and sell my product. It scared the living daylights out of me as I never thought of myself as a "sales person". I thought I was someone who can take an existing relationship, nurture it and build a successful connection. How wrong was I? The bottled water project yanked me out of my comfort zone and has me meeting people on a daily basis - and there my little star shines as I've not had one rejection because I believe in myself and in my product.

    Moral of the story is this. When you believe in yourself and in the product you market to other people you will achieve great success. So I dare you, take that one step out of your comfort zone and let your inner, successful star shine bright my friend. Let it shine and don't worry about the blinding light - we all have sunglasses!

    Now, take the product "Jodene" and dazzle!

      1. As I said to Twinkletoes .. a little praise for the bravery so far would have scored you both points ... but hey ... unconditional love and all 😉
        Faith, trust and fairy dust 😉

    1. This is so special my friend ... you were supposed to say that I've been so super brave already ... but I'll let it slide 😉
      ... But do we all have Dolce and Gabbana? 😉

  3. Do you ever feel like a plastic bag, Drifting through the wind, Wanting to start again
    Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin, Like a house of cards, One blow from caving in
    Do you ever feel already buried deep, Six feet under scream, But no one seems to hear a thing
    Do you know that there's still a chance for you, Cause there's a spark in you, You just gotta ignite the light, And let it shine. Just own the night, Like the Fourth of July
    Cause baby you're a firework, Come on show 'em what you're worth
    Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!" As you shoot across the sky-y-y
    Baby you're a firework, Come on let your colors burst
    Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
    You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

    Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
    And when it's time, you'll know. You just gotta ignite the light, And let it shine, Just own the night, Like the Fourth of July

    1. There are no words to say how much you totally rock and how special your friendship is to me! Thank you for always giving me strength and guiding me through! You are part of my sparkle my friend!!!

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