I guess that this is no different to a relationship.
When it all begins it's magical and there seems that an end would never be in the equation. Then one of you starts to grow and tries to get the other to catch up, but the growing paths seem to drift further apart, until someone has to ask some serious questions.
It's not the relationship is doomed. It's that if something doesn't change it's going to be doomed. You see, when I started blogging my story of 'project me', I had so much to learn about myself. Of course the learning hasn't stopped and it never will, but 'project me' is in my every breath. Living with courage, consciousness and a sense of humour has blossomed into truly living it each day and that is all thanks to this incredible platform of blogging.
I could feel it when I had less to say on the weekends. When I started focusing on the lack of comments and retweets from people even though I know there are avid readers out there. I blamed the work load and just didn't have the energy at the end of the day. Amazingly, I haven't missed one day, which does speak of my bond with my blog.
The realisation truly is that I feel like a stuck record. I've gone from single to engaged, from eating issues to a healthy lifestyle, from being lost in a career to walking a very clear path ... all thanks to living each day absolutely goalless but totally purposeful.
What's been hitting me with reality most of all is that the people I'm meeting lately don't even know I blog. It truly was what got me recognised and what sparked my place in the social media world, but it's almost like my blog is telling me that it's not serving the same purpose.
Incredibly ... I also know that my 'project me' journey isn't done with the world yet, but like that relationship, if something doesn't change then resentment is going to kick.
So I'm now dealing with a big 'project me' issues ... the issue of blogging 'project me'. Let's not forget that it now has a regular radio slot every Sunday morning, so there's no quitting just yet.
But what now? What does tomorrow hold? How do I fix a relationship that I love so much, but that's not serving me to the fullest?