It's Monday morning and I'm feeling pretty frazzled. I don't know if it's my own issues that are getting to me or the concern that I have for everyone else around me. All of a sudden my family and a great deal of my friends seem to be finding themselves amidst unusual amounts of change, challenge and fear. With my very mothering, rescuing energy I have to hold myself back from making sure everyone is okay. Hence, the stress mounts up because I feel helpless on top of my own issues and world of chaos.
Practicing living with faith in the process of life, I know that myself and everyone around me is going to be better than just okay, but the wait to swim through to the other side is driving me insane. I often joke that I choose not to do patience in this lifetime. If there is nothing but choice, then I am free to choose to not have patience at all? Right? No? Why the hell not?
I know it takes a while to set up home and it hasn't even been a week yet, but now the boxes are getting on my nerves. I want my pretty, perfect house and I want to have friends over for tea ... like now!
I want the finances to be flowing and Lifeology to be booming in the way that I know it is going to.
I want the opportunities to be gushing in. I want all my loved ones to have what they want and feel settled and content. Not always ... I know that life will be filled with the ebb and wave of different moments and situations that we have to overcome and adjust to. It would just be nice to be over this ebb in order to ride the wave for a while.
No wait ... instead of deleting everything I've just written maybe it's better to watch the 'project me' moment as I adjust my attitude and remember the gratitude.
I'm in a perfect home with a perfect relationship with my mom. We have a perfect kitty and parrot that keep us company and I'm living next door to my best friend who is also the perfect business partner. I have the most beautiful friends and I see the perfection in their lives too. I know that all boxes will eventually be unpacked and friends and family will fill my beautiful home. I know that money will flow and everyone's hearts will be filled with love!
I know, I know ... but I really wish I could skip patience in this lifetime.