Tonight is supposed to be a project body blog but that's seriously the last thing on my mind. Actually, so is blogging but something has to be said ... and fast! I've always been the girls of lots of words but tonight, starting at the candle that will burn for the memory of dad (known as Yotsiet in Jewdism) I don't feel like speaking much. Tomorrow is the date of his passing and just for that extra touch of family drama, he passed away on my sister's birthday ...
If you know my story through this blog you know I'm not very connected to the religion at all. My pagan heart has very different beliefs when it comes to death and those who have left this earth, but I know my mom feels and so I share it.
I can't believe my dad has been gone 3 years. More than that, I can't believe how it's torn at my heart this year. I'm not one to even get stuck on anniversaries and I questioned whether I was falling into a depression today and needed to go onto those little blue pills. Then it hit me ... it doesn't always have to get easier with time.
Ultimately time only heals if you let go... it's the letting go that's so difficult. It is at the end of it all, these things that scar us far worse than any physical assult could.
I might be the furtherest from religious in my approach to anything, but I'll take a little green guys word on it, so as Yoda would say, “Death is a natural part of life. Rejoice for those around you who transform into the Force. Mourn them do not. Miss them do not. Attachment leads to jealously. The shadow of greed, that is.” I guess we should learn to let go, not because we've lost someone, but more so because they'll never really leave us.
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Isn't it amazing how the little green man always says it best!
Thanks for the special words my friend ... they are always so appreciated!