Today I'm battling to blog so bear with me.
It's horrible to say that today I'm pissed off at the Universe. I can't believe that it's not good enough to do a whole lot of brave things ... no, Miss Universe has to throw a whole lot of obstacles in the way and today I feel that it's totally unfair.
For a non believer in any external force that has control over my day and for someone who knows that my God, Goddess and all that is, is me ... what do I do with a day like today?
There's no one to blame, no one to turn to and no one to drop to my knees and pray to. The irony is that I pray all day and 'drop' to my knees just as often ... I just know that it's all the power of me!
Today, however, I wish that I was born into a different faith and I wish I was born in a different place ... more to the point, I wish that one of my most favourite country songs was more than just words today.
Jesus take the wheel is totally ironic (I know, second time I've said ironic in about two breaths) because I'm this born-Jewish, turned pagan girl, who now has beliefs that don't really fit into a box at all and just for today I wish that I would throw my hands in the air and believe it's all taken care of.
Greggie always giggles at my love for this song for that very reason ... it's so far from what I believe although I respect anyone who has such an amazingly beautiful relationship with Jesus. In?Judaism?we are taught not but I'm far too?independent and wanting to not have know him ... yet ... I'm also far too?entrenched?in my beautiful beliefs and faith in my path to know that he would dare allow me to just let go ... even if it were just for today.