"Love is on the way
On wings of angels
I know it's true, I feel it coming through
Love is on the way
Time is turning the pages
I don't know when
But love will find me again
I am not afraid
Of the mystery of tomorrow
I have found the faith deep within
There's a promise I have made
There's a dream I'm gonna follw
There's another chance to begin
And it's coming as sure as the heavens
I can feel it right here in my heart"
I remember hearing this song for the first time (or truly acknowledging it) after the man I was sure I would marry ended up falling in love with someone else and moving on to marry her. At that time the movie First Wives Club had just come out and I played this song until I had cried every tear I had left inside.
I put men on the shelf and lost myself at the same time after that heartbreak and the returning to me is how 'project me' truly started. Interventions of a few good friends at the time helped me see how I had allowed others to give me a reason to self?destruct.
I stopped that self destruction a long time ago and have been hopeful of love for a while now. There have been some beautiful men in my life, but none with the hope of lasting.
Of course it's all going to come flooding back with the combination of my sister's wedding and Valentines Day within a day of each other. ?It's a lot of emotions all mixed into one and it doesn't matter that I haven't heard this song in a good few years but the words came rushing back yesterday. It was as though there were being sung to me ...
Sung to me when my friend let me down for our Valentine's dinner
Sung to me when I got an?anonymous sms and found out later it was a guy I asked to leave me alone
Sung to me when I man I was once in an intimate relationship with asked me to help mend his current broken relationship (Apparently it's in my job description ... um?)
Sung to me when my beautiful sister and her new husband returned home from their romantic wedding night
Sung to me when all my friends were posting beautiful love messages to their valentines.
Sung to me when I could hear the concern in Greggie's voice that I was let down for the night
Sung to me when I spent hours talking to a man that hasn't made mention of meeting after a lot of communication
Sung to me when I climbed into bed alone .... well, there's always kitty to keep my company.
I'm not lonely or pining for love and I'm never worried that I will spend my life alone, but some days just have 'when?' written all over them and considering 'truth' is my motto in life ... I had to follow my heart's question and wonder when?
Catching the bouquet at the wedding was totally scammed by everyone there, by the way. My brother in law told my sis how far to throw and one friend shoved me forward while all the rest took a step back. I take that with all the compliment it was intended ... I've never caught the bouquet before, so maybe the myth is true 😉
I can't believe how blessed I am by friends, family and blogging/tweeting 'stranger' (because I feel as though I know you) for making me feel so loved and special. Without knowing it, each one of you reminded me that my time is coming ... that love is on the way on wings of angels!
Until then ... I'm still the luckiest girl in the world, showered with love and a million reasons to smile 😉