I've been so quite.
I've sat down to blog countless times but then nothing flows.
I have so much to say, but I feel like a horse caught back in a paddock and frustrated, waiting to run free.
That's literally what my life is like right now.
I'm sitting on the brink of such exciting ventures and opportunities but with contracts not signed and client's asking for me to hold back ... well, have you ever seen me speechless?
Well, that's only half the excuse. I know I could babble on about my personal life, but that seems to be in such a confusing place too. I'm trying to believe that second chances are possible and that we don't have to drag our past with us, but that's proving to be less simple than I thought.
Now that I sit here and I've finally mustered up the courage to talk ... I realise that I've missed out on sharing so many good things. Oh hell, have I been focusing on the negative? Have I been silent because I haven't been counting my blessings and popping past to give a snippet of what makes me happy each day. Of course there is stuff that makes me so very happy and I'm loving the journey.
Okay I needed to hear myself say this to pull myself together and stop walling in all that I think I can't ...
It's an interesting day to have this realisation because tonight is the Pagan festival of Samhain. It's what we know to be Halloween, but this is the right time of year and going far back to the birth of the festival. The start of winter and the celebration of the dark harvest. On a personal note, it's the time we should go inwards and face our demons or the shadow that we hide from. It's a time of great truth and insight, without coating everything with the the positivity movement.
Perfect #ProjectMe timing ... as always!!!