The dance of life - project me day 284

13 October 2010

Today I really didn't think I was going to manage this blog but I keep reminding myself that if I can't give myself this gift then I'm giving up. I don't give up and I find it hard to believe that with the fighting spirit of so many around me, that many of us do give up. Maybe I'm just blessed by who I am surrounded by but today I had a good day in the strangest way.

I got news last night that a school friend finally gave up her fight with cancer. It's incredible that it falls at a time when Lifeology is doing our first Cup for Cancer appearance and I feel as though I am giving something back. Mel was valiant in her fight and it is supposed to be her birthday party this Saturday, now the venue has just been changed slightly. I still know she will dance a celebration for a life brilliantly lived. Her sister, Angie, has always held a special place in my heart and it's one of those friendships where we might only see each other every ten years or so but we are friends for life. She has always danced the dance of life and I know she will continue to dance for Mel.

I watched the miners being rescued one by one from the mine in Chile today and had a fleeting moment where I thought that my problems were so insignificant in comparison. I then remembered that one of my greatest lessons in life is that it's not a competition. No one suffers more than another ... we all have our pain and until we bleed and someone can physically feel our pain then it will always be our own and the worst we can experience. I did watch them dance though and it was beautiful to see the celebration with the dance of life.

Many saved ... one lost! That's life!

I, on the other hand, had a profound meditation today where it was suggested to me that I go right back to the initial tantric meditations I did years ago when I had no relationship with my body at all. I attempted one but it seemed so foreign that I let my mind wonder and daydreamed?instead. A few hours later the message was repeated ... this time by Greggie. He said almost the same thing that had been said in my meditation. It was a sign (yes, one of those) ... back to basics and learning the dance steps all over again but this time with a little more rhythm and a whole lot more dance moves.

It's amazing that feeling as though you have taken a step back is just a result of a bold step forward. Today I managed to be up and about a little and started sorting a space for my meditations to begin. I managed to sit by the computer for the first time and check emails from there and not from my blackberry for a change. I also managed to sit and have supper at the dining table with my mom. My body is aching for it but that's ok because in comparison it was a magical day.

I'm aching in my body, some people are aching in their hearts and some people ache with every thought ... by our souls never stop dancing the dance of life ... I realised that today!

14 comments on “The dance of life - project me day 284”

  1. Beautifully put Jo. We all carry wounds - some physical, some emotional and some mental. One is no greater than the other. Our own wound still inflicts the most pain on us because it is ours. But it is ours by choice and it makes the journey so much more interesting.

    I know how difficult the last few weeks have been and yet you continue to be an inspiration to yourself and those around you.

    My recent post A hell of a story

  2. The race is long... but in the end is only with ourselves.

    While many people can quite rightly say, "I know what that's like..." they really never will know how you feel. For some people losing their beloved hamster really is the end of the world... while for others it was just a pet. We'll never be able to truly convey exactly how much something means to us or just how much it hurts. But there are always a few that come fairly close. A precious few that we should always hold onto. Those that never say they know how you feel, but who will simply give you a hug.

    An old friend pointed out that people are born, people die... it's cold but a fact. But less important than what we do in-between those two points.

    But... dance, even if it's in your own living room 😉

    My recent post Im Not a Girl- Not Yet a Woman

    1. Ah ... I love your comment Robbie and am savouring it. I am feeling a little dance around the living room sooner than later ... you never know, I might even video it 😉

    1. Yay that you are doing the walk my friend. It's for such a good cause! Let me know how it goes and good luck, it's very bold and brave of you ... you do know how far 8km is ... right?

  3. Can you believe I actually feel comfortable enough to respond to my comments. Thank you so much for all the support during this time when I build a very special relationship with my body. You have been my rock!

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