"Be mindful of your words!" That's all I have uttering to myself since I noticed the number of times I heard myself say, "I can't believe it!"
Honestly, for the longest time, I couldn't believe it, but then I started to notice the chaos that stood between me and one of my biggest dreams come true. It's one week away now and all fell perfectly into place, after I settled into the reality that I am worthy and powerful enough to manifest whatever I want.
Well, let's rephrase that ... when I am standing in Dallas, with Luke Bryan, Miranda Lambert and over 40 of the best country music singers a few meters away from me, I will know I can do ANYTHING!
If you're new to my story, in a nutshell, I'm a ridiculously huge country music fan, in a country where most people don't know who George Strait is and think country is Dolly Parton and Kenney Rogers, or worse ?... Taylor Swift!
For years I have imagined what it would be like to see one or two of my favourite singers or bands live. I would ponder on which one I would choose, knowing I had one shot at turning that dream to a reality. Of all things, I never doubted that I would see at least one and whenever I wrote a bucket list or imagined my biggest dreams coming true, country music was always there.
I bought my tickets 11 months ago ... wow, I remember how I pondered and how special people in my life eventually had to push me to do it, and now I'm rushing to finish the last of my work and buy a warm coat for New York, because that's where this dream begins.
Here's the real cracker and the point of this story: I'm not seeing one artist or band. I'm going to the biggest two day country music festival that the Academy of Country Music has ever hosted. I'm going to be seeing 50, yes FIFTY artists, spanning the 5 decades of the awards. That's beyond incredible. That's no wonder I was saying, "I can't believe it!" so often.
It's been a battle to get everything together, from funds running out because I'm an entrepreneur and that's how life goes, to passport drama at home affairs. I've had glitches in the business and had a few people questions if it's the right time to be going ... I've had every reason to rethink this and know there will be other times, but there won't.
Hold onto that dream with all you've got. Get to that point where you realise that letting go will do more damage than holding on. Know that you aren't alone and call on the people who will hold everything up while you go out and get what you know you deserve. The moment I did that, everything started to fall into place. I'm not even guaranteeing that things won't fall apart while I'm away, but I have absolute faith in everyone around me and I'm doing it anyway!
Scream, Dance and sing Hallelujah!
Years ago I went to a seminar by Mike Dooley, who founded Notes from the Universe. I was in awe that day and the one message that suck was, "do your woo hoo's". He made us say them out load, heart and soul.
I believe that the universe works purely on vibration and even when (if) we prey, it's the energy that is sent out there and not the words. From that day, I have been very conscious of my energy and for years, I had to force the dance of joy of the screams of gratitude, but I did something. Even with the smallest achievement, I would sneak into the bathroom (public ones at times) and cover my mouth while I did a silent scream of happiness and gratitude. It would invigorate me and I can only image the vibration I sent out into the Universe.
Call me crazy, but that's why I believe I manifested this dream come true.
It's like getting the gods online and having their full attention, while you are in the midst of pumping belief, pride and knowing into your world, so while your vibration is high and you are floating on clouds, savouring what you have had the power to manifest, ask for more. Ask for loads more.
I'm not sure what I will plan for my life after I returned from this once in a lifetime, tick off the bucket list experience, but I know it's going to be huge. It's going to involve more for my business, my financial life and my bucket list is going to explode. It's going to take Project Me to another level and it's going to redefine what I know I want and deserve.
Don't compare the size of the dream!!
Yes, in my world, this is huge, but it's the smaller achievements that drove me to this. It's the dream of having my own business or working in the social media industry or that trip to Cape Town, buying my first designer handbag and standing in Tuscan after I watched Under the Tuscan Sun a hundred times, that got me to this.
It's not the size of the dream that counts, but the amount of energy that's launched into that scream of gratitude into the universe of the exhausted collapse onto the floor after dancing all of my gratitude out into the world ... it's that! It's my formula and I truly believe it!
Of course, I'm going to end with words from a country song, by Lee Ann Womack ...
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.