I imagined myself finishing my breakfast meeting by midday and having blogged less than an hour after, with the rest of the day being consumed by packing. 10am is a fair time to get together with friends and 12am is a fair time to part ways. Then why am I only managing to blog at 4pm?
Have you ever ... I think the staff of the restaurant were trying to figure out ways to move us out gently. How much can people talk for 5 and a half hours? How much?cappuccino is too much for a Sunday morning?
Between last night's dinner with two special friends and this morning extended breakfast, I find myself in awe at the power of friendships when it comes turning my dreams into a reality.
I'm not the strongest person when it comes to marketing. Put me up on a stage with hundreds of people hanging on my every word and I'm must fine. Make me draw the crowd and something makes me fall flat. I used to beat myself up about it and in some respects I am only getting over the personal pounding as I share this 'project me' realisation with you in this very moment.
Here I have been trying all of these marketing techniques and following the formulas that are put out there in the world to make it so much easier and I really haven't seen the results in any way, shape or form. Then I have dinner with two friends who have both taken my journey of success in their own personal interest and I have breakfast with more friends who are tapping into every network they have to throw me out into the world.
Meetings are few and far between, but socialising with friends is booming and only now do I feel myself abundant with possibility. I can't believe how people rumble through their minds and connect the dots what all lead to an opportunity. All this happening while friends are sharing wine, laughs and special time together.
I can't begin to express my frustration with you. I don't know how to put into words what it's like to be doing exactly what I want to do with who I want to do it with and the struggle is still so very hard. I question the law of attraction theory that you just have to do what you love. You think I don't get asked by so many people why, if I'm doing what I love, I'm not rolling in the dough? I have no freaking idea people!!!
I still don't believe I'm failing in any way and I refuse to fall into the trap of trying to figure out what I am not getting right. I am getting everything right and I all I need to do is keep going the best way I know how.
That best way is letting go of the attempt to do it all myself and admit my limitations. In those very limitations there I find myself surrounded by my dearest friends who are jumping in to help carry me.
I have one hell of a week ahead of me with the move to the new house and at the same time the end of the month and bills to pay is also looming. Yet, there is something in me that is as firm as anything, reminding me to just keep going and when it gets a little rough all I have to do is phone a friend.